He knows exactly how our minds work, what our failings and compulsions are, and longs to teach us how to reorient our attitudes and desires toward the highest good. And he has endured every possible physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual agony we go through (even temptation!). This is the Christ Julian knows to be at the foundation, the very ground, of our being.
The "Godly Will"
For Julian, it is in this ground of the soul that the “godly will” resides, that never wills sin: in our Christ-redeemed nature.
And this is the supreme friendship of our courteous lord, that he keeps us so tenderly while we are in our sinne. And furthermore, he touches us most intimately, and shews us our sinne by the sweet light of mercy and grace.
Julian is convinced that even when we are in the midst of harming ourselves or others, and seem to be abandoning God, he does not abandon us. Instead, he whispers in our heart and mind, moves our conscience to feel remorse, and leads us to ask forgiveness, guiding us by his own “sweet light of mercy and grace.”
However, Julian is acutely aware that when we sin, “we see ourself "so foule,” we think (indeed, we assume) that “God is wroth with us for our sinne." Here, Julian is describing her own
sense of personal guilt, with a keen understanding that Christians persistently harbor a wrong view of God as being wrathful.
Mercy and Grace
Julian explains that though we may remain convinced that God must be angry at us while we are in sin, it is precisely his ever-present mercy and grace which enable us to turn back to him, confess our failure, and ask forgiveness. Christ gathers us up like his prodigal son (or daughter) and encloses us in the royal robe (the restored innocence of our baptism), calls his servants to kill the fatted calf and prepare a banquet (the Eucharist), and invites all the saints to join in the celebration: “because this brother of yours was dead and has come to life; he was lost and has been found” (Lk 15:32).
What Julian is describing here is not only the parable of the prodigal son, but also the never-ending story of the exorbitant love of the prodigal Father.
My Dear Darling
And then our courteous lord shews himself to the soul merrily and with the happiest possible expression, with friendly welcoming, as if it had been in pain and in prison, saying thus:
“My dear darling, I am glad that thou art come to me. In all thy woe I have ever been with thee, and now see for yourself my love, and let us be oned in bliss.” Thus are sins forgiven by grace and mercy, and our soul honorably received in joy, exactly as it shall be when it comes into heaven, as often as it comes back to God by the gracious werking of the holy ghost and the power of Christ’s passion.
In contemplating Christ’s mercy and grace in never leaving us
alone, even in our sin, Julian understands how “all manner of thing” is already being prepared for us in heaven, “by the great goodness of God." This is so true that, whenever we feel ourselves “in peace and in charity, we are truly safe." And we are, by implication, already saved.
Julian reports exceptionally intimate terms in this passage, such
as “My dear darling” and let us “be oned in bliss,” more often
employed between earthly lovers than between the sinful soul and God. She remembers the depth of personal feeling Christ showed her as he conveyed this Revelation about sin. He was not only joyous, friendly, welcoming; he was also deeply loving and all-embracing. His ardent desire for unity is that of a lover for the beloved, not in a sexual sense, but in that of complete spiritual oneing. Just hearing words like these spoken by Christ in one’s heart would be enough to convince the soul of his unconditional love.
This is the love that Pope Francis has shown us in so many ways throughout his momentous trip to the United States. There is no anger, no judgment, no condemnation, only compassion and concern for all that human beings have to suffer. He goes out of his way to touch, to heal, to comfort with a smile and a consoling word. He is not interested in who is watching or judging him. He simply speaks and acts as a servant of the Gospel. This is the unconditional love of Christ that we, too, are called upon to show one other.
Please Note: Quotations above are taken from Chapter 17 of Julian's Gospel: Illuminating the Life & Revelations of Julian of Norwich (Orbis Books), copyright © 2013 by Veronica Mary Rolf. All rights reserved. Do not copy or reproduce.