In the First Revelation, as Julian of Norwich beheld Christ on the cross, she also longed to see Mary, his mother. But by her own accounting, she did not Mary “in the flesh” as she saw Christ, but rather “ghostly, in bodily likeness.” This implies that Julian saw Mary appear suddenly and distinctly in her imagination, without any effort on Julian’s part to conjure her. Julian was granted a glimpse into the beauty of Mary’s soul and the holy awe in which she contemplated God:
God showed me in part the wisdom and truth of her soul, wherein I understood the reverent beholding in which she beheld her God, that is, her maker, marveling with great reverence that he would be born of her who was a simple creature of his making. For this was her marveling: that he who was her maker would be born of her who was made. And this wisdom and truth, knowing the greatness of her maker and the littleness of herself that is made, made her say so meekly to Gabriel: “Lo me here, God’s handmaiden.”
In this meditation, Julian is keenly aware that Mary was, like herself, “a simple creature,” uneducated, and without any earthly nobility. Yet Julian understood truly that Mary was more worthy than all other creatures God had ever made, because she was conceived without sin. All other creatures are therefore below her. And above her is “nothing that is made but the blessed manhood of Christ, as to my sight.”
This Christmas season, let us take time away from the hustle and bustle to enter into the stable – the silent stability of daily meditation – to join with Mary and Joseph, in “reverent beholding” of God in the flesh of a newborn baby. May we be graced to see that Christ is breaking through the darkness to reveal Divine Reality that is always and everywhere at work – even and perhaps especially when we cannot see or feel it. Christ is our Light who transforms the meaning of everything from sadness to serenity, from fear to courage, from helplessness to hope.
Let us open wide the manger of our hearts to receive this newborn God-Child, knowing the greatness of our maker and the littleness of ourselves. May we also “marvel with great reverence” that the little Lord Jesus is being born anew "of us" this very day through our own love and compassion, mercy and kindness, laughter and friendship. And may this be our marveling: that he who is our Maker is born of we who are made! And in this "wisdom and truth" may we always be ready to say: “Lo, me here, God’s servant” in whatever life situation we find ourselves. Then our Christmas will itself become a light to help dispel the despair of our discordant world.
PLEASE NOTE: Excerpts above are from Julian's Gospel: Illuminating the Life & Revelations of Julian of Norwich (Orbis Books), Copyright © 2013 by Veronica Mary Rolf. All rights reserved. This article may not be copied or reprinted without the express permission of the author.
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